A Pathepic Love Story

I once had a love story.

This story was Pathepic. Pathetic and in the same time, it was epic too.

I'll tell you what, my super-ego won. It did the right thing.

"Super-ego--which causes you to feel guilty when you have done something wrong."

I don't know. I might have done something wrong to him--I pushed him too much. I confused him--because now, I feel guilty as fuck.

Maybe.

I don't blame anybody, or anything. Because this story involves nothing. 

A friend once said, "Something instant doesn't make you satisfied. It will hurt you soon. No matter what."

Source: http://theawkwardyeti.com/index.php/tag/foolish-heart/

Am I embarrassing myself too much? Well, if I am, I don't mind. This is love. What do you expect? That broken heart phase is the risk you should take.

Even a Bear can feel that. The power of love always wins.

I really don't know what I was going through lately. Some messages and that is all. My world seemed like falling apart like a meteor crush.

Maybe later. Good things always come for those who wait, right? I have a faith. And I have to wait. It may take forever but I don't care. I once (thought that I) loved you and that's right. I'm okay. And I'll always be okay. Even though it's finally done, forever.

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Do you know why I called this a Pathepic love story?

It's pathetic. Because it was really pathetic in the beginning. Have you ever felt like you're not worthy for someone so you just step out back from his/her life slowly? Have you? Nah, that's pathetic.

The epic part was, when you're like about to step back, that someone pulled you back. That someone pulled you back to his/her arms. You were back to his/her world. You suddenly felt guilty. You felt like, "Shit. What should I do?" but you at last did nothing and started to feel more comfortable near him/her than before.

It's pathepic because it really is. The combination of two emotions. Two feelings. Two persons. One love whose story needs to be remembered, not to be told.

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It's pathetic because in the end, we ain't together. It's pathetic because you suddenly changed your mind before I could say yes. It's pathetic because I cried so hard whenever I thought about this. It's pathetic because I didn't have much time to tell you what's my true feeling back then.

It's epic because I felt new. It's epic because you made me feel like I'm worthy for someone like you. It's epic because our story is unforgettable. It's epic because at least I knew you. It's epic because we've made some stories I could write here. It's epic because I've loved you, and knowing that you liked (or even loved) me too.

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